Desperate House Juggler


He is moving today and asked me when are we going to see each other again. I told him the truth, I don’t know. He took it as if I am angry with him or that I am being bitchy at him. The truth is that I am figuring things out for me. Why I am in a sadomasoquist relationship? Why did I need to get involved with an addict? For what part of me all of that was convenient? There are so many other things that I am no longer comfortable with… doing therapy does change you, that’s the whole point of it. The consequence is that sometimes those around you are stucked…

I really hope that he seeks for help… because there is no way I am going back to the same lifestyle… but maybe is going to be really hard… but I have the right and the obligation to seek my happyness and well being, not only for me but also for my daughter.

Anyways I am sad. I miss him and I know my daughter misses him too. She used to wake up really happy in the mornings, nowadays she is upset.